Look, don't tell druff, but I saw your post. Just to be clear it's not your mom's fault and having contact with her has nothing to do with your present situation. When I say you need to leave home, that means you need to leave your life behind and go live a new life in a different geographic region than the middle of california. You've never left what you grew up in and with and that's limited to your mom.
Also brown the fucking meat next time you tard.
And most importantly, read that gamble pfa post/novel a dozen times over the course of a few days (the entire post each time - word for word) and try to listen to what he's saying because probably does have the shit that's relevant to you figure out. Most everybody else is just babbling at you because you write funny shit to read (like the laugh at you, not with you category of funny shit).