Counter this.
I've told this story a few times in long posts. Here's a short one for the illiterate.
I see very few people talking about emotional manipulation. I'm not the best writer in the world, but I've written a great deal about it; theories and stories and bric-a-brac. I was an emotional basket-case until the third time I fell in love > betrayed. I was about to noose, crashing from that artificially-inflated high to an artificially-deflated low was about to be terminal, but something peculiar happened.
I saw Reality literally change in front of my eyes as I crashed from Insanely in Love to Brutally Betrayed. I thought, "Hold on a second. Reality is not real? My emotions distort my perceptions of everything?"
And then I realised, everything was in my head. Love, Betrayal, Devastation, Ecstasy and Anguish. All the emotional insanity that had 'guided' my entire life. I made it all up! I was about to kill myself but I laughed instead.
And just like that, I became sane. I was 29 years old.
Later, I read "A Perfect Spy" by John le Carre. "Love is whatever there is to betray." I understood what was happening to the world. Emotional slaves exploited by illusions like Love. I've written a great deal about emotional manipulation since then. And I've had to stop emotionally manipulating, of course. I could never work out why I always felt like a _creep_ or a fraud. I wasn't even really lying; merely controlling the minds of almost everyone I met, hah.
I thought I was just being "charming".
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