$1800 away unfortunately. The probation dept denied my petition for record clearance because I owe some fines totaling the above amount. The judge told me her hands are tied, pay the dmv and come back, there are no workarounds I am aware of. I already petitioned Traffic Court to have the fines waived or reduced to no avail.
Essentially I owned a 1991 integra, blue, and some lady smashed into my parked car the night before my Anatomy final. Car totaled, farmers dragged their asses with the dmv and refused to send them proof of correction so I could handle the tickets (all three tickets are for expired tags, I had financial problems and then, when I actually had money, I no longer had the car, farmer's took possession)
I even tried submitting all the documentation I have showing farmers bought the vehicle from me as proof of correction and the judge cared not.
As much as it sounds like I am, I am NOT complaining right now. The adult probation dept actually denied my petition and strangely moved to have it taken off calendar. They went so far as to not send the judge docs stating I had served them (I did in person, as I did the district attorney) and that alone almost derailed my court appearance. I had to sit in court 30 minutes while they called probation and determined I was telling the truth.
The judge dished out the biggest blessing ever in granting me a stay of 90 days to put together the $1800 to pay the dmv, show probation, go to court, get disposition for an old (1998) case changed from guilty to dismissed. The navy will be pleased, I can move forward (though I have some opportunities I am working on which probably greatly overshadow what the navy has to offer me, first solid anything with decent guaranteed money I am taking and never looking back)
I have declared war on my poverty stricken lifestyle, I can take it no longer. Don't call me greedy, I am no such thing, but I just can not lie down and accept being broke destitute and exploited more often than not.
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Originally Posted by Mista Cobalina
Nat Sherman's are better than Dunhill's in every conceivable way
Quoted for Scooter. Give Nat's a try, just two packs, and I swear the next Dunhill you light up you will reflexively spit onto the ground. I literally did exactly that, as I walked back into my local head shop and exchanged the disgusting things for another pack of my beloved Nat Naturals.
Hey Scoots I hope this makes your morning- I baled hay for my folks yesterday and was actually paid for doing it (a first)
My step dad came and got me from my room across the street (moving OFF the back patio and into a room I paid for, can't tell you how good that feels!) and asked if I would move hay.
Reflexively I said my baling policies had changed and I no longer work for free (I literally saw an image of your text telling me "I do not bale hay for free, but those are only my baling policies. Do as you wish" or something similar. It stuck with me, I never even considered the option of asking for money for my labor. I am so used to just work work work, take whatever they give you (essentially exploitation) that it was actually hard to ask for anything.
He shrugged and said he'd throw me $10 an hour, which I am fine with. He even bought me a quarter pounder (with cheese) for lunch.
You gave me some courage and inspiration in that passing comment, it was and is genius and I have to admit, this not being exploited thing is rather empowering.
Thank you.
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Originally Posted by Mista Cobalina
Nat Sherman's are better than Dunhill's in every conceivable way
Quoted for Scooter. Give Nat's a try, just two packs, and I swear the next Dunhill you light up you will reflexively spit onto the ground. I literally did exactly that, as I walked back into my local head shop and exchanged the disgusting things for another pack of my beloved Nat Naturals.
do you just not fucking get it mike? scooter does whatever it is scooter does, and he's an eccentric millionaire. you're abusing truck driver wakey-wake pills and sleeping on your mom's porch. don't you fucking dare come on scooter's site and try to tell him how to lead his life. if you absolutely must be online for some reason, these are the type of sites you should be visiting:
I dunno, it's something you'd have to talk to a specialist about, Unipolar Mania is pretty rare as I understand it.
JFC IS THIS ME
"So far, this discussion has been based on a viewpoint that puts a very positive spin on the manic aspect of bipolar disorder. However, as I said at the outset, there is another perspective that argues that full-blown mania in and of itself is incredibly debilitating. Some of the controversy may result from considering different points in the progression of a manic episode.
In the early stages of a manic episode, a person may seem to be more social, active,talkative, self-confident, insightful and creative than usual. [absolutely agree] But as the episode unfolds, common symptoms include extreme irritability YES, overreaction to stimuli TO SAY THE LEAST, difficulty understanding what is going on, poor judgment, blaming others for things that go wrong, and loss of touch with reality, in some cases including hallucinations and delusions (2). YES I WOULD SAY THAT ABOUT DESCRIBES MY EXPERIENCES WITH MANIA RATHER PERFECTLY.
One bipolar sufferer described the state of mania in the following way:
"The fast ideas become too fast and there are far too many...overwhelming confusion replaces clarity...you stop keeping up with it -- memory goes, infectious humor ceases to amuse. Your friends become frightened...everything is now against the grain...you are Irritable, angry, frightened." <-----sadly, that's exactly what it's like for me...
Also my manic episodes do not accompany depression of any kind. I gyrate between healthy happy fun and grounded in reality to spinning out of control completely, unaware of what I am doing saying and how far out of touch I have gotten.
it happens fast dude, like if there's a catalyst that sets me off (tine tends to get the brunt of my bullshit mania because he messes with me GODFORBID I KNOW and, though his intentions are fairly innocuous, repeatedly he's trigged full blown manic episodes. Interestingly, I sleep them off) I can be full blown manic within seconds, not minutes, though the mania builds to a climax.
Any chance music is causing or might help this? I am open to any ideas at this point.
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Originally Posted by Mista Cobalina
Nat Sherman's are better than Dunhill's in every conceivable way
Quoted for Scooter. Give Nat's a try, just two packs, and I swear the next Dunhill you light up you will reflexively spit onto the ground. I literally did exactly that, as I walked back into my local head shop and exchanged the disgusting things for another pack of my beloved Nat Naturals.
Also, for the record, when I had health insurance I did try to get help.
When I had blue cross I went to a doctor and received prozac. No more or less, just fucking prozac.
When I had Kaiser a couple years ago I (after spending 8-9 weeks bouncing around) managed to see a psychiatrist who deemed me "type 2 bi-polar, nonspecific" and wrote me a script for lamictal 100mg, come back in SIX MONTHS.
I suspect I need a more intensive level of care than I have received and I am saying this because people tend to knock me, saying "WELL MIKE YOU NEED TO FIX THIS. THAT'S WHAT PEOPLE DO, THEY HAVE INSURANCE AND GO SEE A DOCTOR. YOU ARE LAZY AND LOOKING FOR SYMPATHY AND ARE WORTHLESS"
I went to several doctors and, so far, I've gotten a shitty anti-depressant and lamictal. I might think I could tell my psychiatrist the lamictal is worthless FAR SOONER THAN SIX MONTHS, but that might require them actually caring enough about me to move me along faster so that I might find something that actually fucking works and live a balanced, productive life at some point.
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Originally Posted by Mista Cobalina
Nat Sherman's are better than Dunhill's in every conceivable way
Quoted for Scooter. Give Nat's a try, just two packs, and I swear the next Dunhill you light up you will reflexively spit onto the ground. I literally did exactly that, as I walked back into my local head shop and exchanged the disgusting things for another pack of my beloved Nat Naturals.
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