Originally Posted by
OvenWax
what sites are you using to chat with all these toddlers ?
also have you returned to the pimp since black thursday ?
I only use the one but it's really more for academic / hobby / personal interest because if I wanted girls, you know in Bangkok that particular sub-set is moderately catered for. The Pimp I am unable to return to.
I can prove that I'm not actually trying to impress girls; because those two comments I posted are ones I like. They will kill the conversation stone cold every time because girls are so demented (and I used to believe this was their brilliance in filtering my non-exploitability out but I just wanted to believe that they weren't as pathetic as the alternative) they imagine that anything they don't understand is an insult designed to make them feel emotionally traumatised.
Do you know why they imagine this? There is only ever one reason why someone can imagine you to have a motive to be doing something to them - I'll let you ponder on it.
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But they will not understand whether I'm mocking them or ridiculing them or insulting them in some way but they won't like it. And that will be that. 100% of the time. Well 95%.
I can do optimality and it's not silly funny nonsense chatter like I write. It's the literal opposite. Optimality would look something like:
Hi it's nice to meet you.
Hi.
My name is Bob. What is your name? (never mind that her profile is Anne129, they will not make the connection and also, why would they give up one of their valuable free questions to break the ice?)
Anne. It's nice to meet you Bob. How are you?
I'm good, thank you. And yourself?
Good ^__^ What do you do for work or are you on holiday?
[insert bullshit here to sound very important and generic - because everyone is important in fantasy (how else can you compete) but no one wants to stand out as that wouldn't be normal); everyone knows it's lies anyway, what you say isn't as important as how you make it sound and the Truth does not play well.]
If I have time after my meeting on Thursday, I would love to get to know you better?
Thursday like tomorrow?
Yes, but if you had other plans....
(Girls are caught with the other plans question, so I like to use it for fun. They never answer but they're always unsure of how to lie to impress there for obvious reasons. But they will ask it a lot and if you are a moron who is gaming, the answer is 100% always that you do. It doesn't matter if you're so bored, you're going to be cutting your toenails or reading a magazine alone, you have other plans. Of course plans can fall through. You'd have to know what you're doing though, and if you really knew what you were doing, you'd just fuck off all the gaming because it's insane. And needy.)
No but it's just I think we should get to know each other a little better first. I don't like to be rushed.
Of course you're right. That was thoughtless of me. You are right to take your time, please forgive me - I've had a stressful week, I wasn't thinking. Well how about the following Thursday? Do you like sashimi?
(she will ignore this and go straight to "getting to know each other better" - euphemism for screening)
I mostly like Thai food. My mother's [insert ridiculously unlikely Western dish here] is my favourite food in the world. Do you like Thai food?
Bob's thinking
"I'm not going to meet your mother, but at least she's a sweet simple girl."
She's thinking
"He knows I'm a good, simple, clean girl."
But this can go on forever and as exciting as I make it sound, the truth is it's really
not remotely as interesting as the above.
But in Thailand they will all be BBFs with their mothers because they know the guys are looking for sex slave mail order brides and only mothers who know how to raise their daughters RIGHT are ever going to produce those and the only reason you'd want to even know your mother if you were a girl is if you were running very impressive game and had to embrace your own script to sell it.
Because if you think about it, every girl would despise her mother at around the age of [sex is interesting...]. If you
think about it.
But nothing you see is ever real. Everything you see is a lie, even the truth. If you're seeing it, it's for you.
Originally Posted by
SBG
I am better off with a bit less control over my own life than most I'm pretty sure.
Wow.
No.
Being in control doesn't mean having the power to fuck your life up, you dimwit. Being in control means you have the power to NOT fuck your life up.
Dropped out of high school beginning of sophmore year? check, and all my idea, asked no one for advice
No shit. You weren't in control.
Started smoking pot at 15? checkarooney.
No shit. You were being controlled.
Stole first pot smoked from step fathers vietnam memorial shrine? check as well. (brilliant of me, the stuff was the seeds and stems to make it worse than worse)
You're not in control of your life.
Mom throws me out into the street on 18th birthday - go live on floor of crack house instead of making at least ONE SINGLE attempt to find out what message she is trying to send me? check, all me baby, allll me
I would have presumed...honestly, I cannot fathom what I'd presume or why I'd have a relationship with anybody that couldn't communicate a great deal more efficiently but maybe someone had a problem with listening because they only hear what they like to hear. But I've wanted to be Self-reliant my entire life. So I listen when people talk. I'm Selfish like that. Not sure why you were different.
Oh that's right. You were LOVED.
boss at job #3 owes $2800 in back pay, suggests paying me in cocaine at $150 per 8ball (so no profit really just converting coke into the money owed to me, at huge risk) sounds like a fantastic idea? who disagrees I ask myself privately, thinking how cool I would seem to my friends being a coke dealer.
You would not make a good drug dealer. That's very nearly the worst motive in history to deal coke.
Make sure you impress them real good!!
boss #3 looks me dead in the eye says "don't be a dummy and go trying any of this shit, and don't sell to no fucking undercovers this aint' weed *** DAmnit don't fucking try any of this. You'll do 6 months in the penitentiary if you get stupid sell to who you know. I have the worst feel oh well be safe you're better off not experimenting, it's bad for some people" I spent the next 8 years often homeless usually jobless going dealer to dealer, house to house, often surrounded in filth and squalor that I am sure if I saw again today, if I saw a picture or some kind of real representation of just how bad and how dirty I was living at times, I would drop to my knees and sob uncontrollably. I didn't care, I didn't need a bathroom, I had piss bottles. No piss bottles, I'd piss on a pile of clothes. Porn mags everywhere with layers and layers of lotion warping all the pictures, no heat in the apartment never had air conditioning in my life ...man,.,,didn't care about "nice" or "clean", I also didn't need "food" or "people" or "social skills" all I needed was cocaine and alcohol, and lots of them, to fill the hole in my heart that never filled. Not until recently, anyway (and thankfully!)
Firstly the number of times you tell yourself the hole is filled is pretty obvious screaming that it's not.
Secondly, wtf. There is no blow in the world
that good. You're lying about something.
You're leaving out some important variables. I don't give a fuck, I'm just saying your story is bullshit. Coke doesn't do that to people. Coke that does something for people that people cannot do without coke does
that to people. But it's not really the coke then, is it?
It's the broken people.
Also, blow and alcohol isn't what you'd use to fill an existential need. It's what you'd use to sate a more primal need. You were a real little leech. Non-leeches don't ever end up like that. You were caught high and dry by your leeching, been blaming others ever since. You need to become self-reliant for the first time in your life.
Not leaning on another soul in the universe. Sorry, not
'responsible for' another soul you're leaning on, in the universe.
Best decision maker, possibly in the history of the known universe title going to. (drumroll)
Do I even need to say it? Drum roll. You're insane to imagine you should or could or would be anything but comical to drum roll something as boring as the below.But then if there was anything worth drum rolling, when relating a personal anecdote or history maybe it should be something more suspense-worthy?
I can't think of an example. That's probably telling.
Decide to enroll in community college, basically my mothers idea (all her idea)
Decide to take over 20 units per semester for no good reason, while working full time at a ruthless collection agency and also working hard to be the #1 collector each month (and succeeding) seems iffy- WHILE DRINKING no less than a pint of hard and a few beers and at least 1 1.5 grams of very pure cocaine each and every single night- ...sigh...I got A's in classes I can't even remember a single face out of.
I'm not impressed.
No one is impressed.
You know, in the entire history of your life telling that part of it as you told it there, have you ever impressed anyone?
Make a list and then kill them. They were lying.
WTF would make you think the above would ever impress? Anyone? I mean like a homeless person you were feeding, or a retarded person you had sequestered, or anyone at all. Name one person in the world you imagine would be impressed by the above.
You're not the Toddler you think you are. Get real or get off my planet.
If I do it alone I do it wrong, I think wrong, I choose wrong, it's actually almost funny, silly, comical just how WRONG I can be with consistency.
Yeah that is a problem liars have.
But you are not understanding what being
in control means.
I don't mean to ramble but damn, no one knows how hard life can be
I am amused when your insanity precludes your remembering anything except your own well-worn tired, boring and utterly unsympathetic rhetoric. Shut the fuck up dickwad. You inspire urination.
and it is for me it truly fucking is when you stop on green go on red and it's like.,...the world speaks a different language, moves at it's own speed, and you're totally alone and alien in your own home
It's not your home if you're alien. Get the fuck out and give the poor people their liberty back.
, with no solution to work on nothing to do to fix the problem because you aren't sure what the problem is, no one else seems to either
Maybe they've already told you the solution but you're a little fucking lying Toddler who doesn't want to get better because you know there's nothing wrong with you. You just suffer when you have bad luck is all. When people aren't there for you. When others let you down by failing to provide for you.
. .where is bigdmcgee/tapper that man where is he? This is ridiculous, he can't be that mad can he? MIss the gentleman a tremendous amount most of the time I'm on these forums. Really miss having his presence.
He's not. Tapper will pop in but there is nothing about my posting that is conducive to inspiring a Tapper stream, I'm sorry to say. Tapper has to be inspired, and I'm not inspiring but then the world is fucking full of you. The time for inspiration is over, the trash needs to be taken out.
Originally Posted by
SBG
No don't say that I know what it means. It had better not mean no tapper as well because I will probably eventually get over it and not get too upset in truth but ALL THE SAME I do miss tapper's persona, is a cameo here and there too much? An octopus squinting or a kangaroo on it's side ARE THESE SIMPLE THINGS MORE THAN A MAN SHOULD ASK FOR???
Should a man be this needy?
No fucking way...I actually thought this morning "if not Bob..." no, you were gone gone and during that time...yeah, never mind the crazy guy.
You be a hero when the time comes ya hear me. Don't you fucking not be heroic. You better not miss.
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