I believe you to a certain extent Pike, but when I am sitting there getting lied to my face by gaysex, the biggest reason I came here in the first place, I mean...For what reason might he or anyone really have but to laugh at me behind the scenes for being so gullible to actually believe I was every liked here?
Honestly Mike I thought you had a great idea with the private social group / blog thing, I just had no idea it was going to be the type of party where a few stupid jokes provoked you into removing it all. I was way off base about you. I thought you intentionally were pushing my buttons just so, hoping I would fly off the handle, as opposed to friendly jabs. Jabs are fine, the comic or whatever was actually funny (strange but funny) the timing was good, I just was insane and took it the wrong way. Social group to go back up, and I'm just going to have to draw a few lines with regard to what I will or won't talk about. I had been thinking of telling ANYTHING, but that was probably NOT the best idea, so it's all good really. Thanks for the kind words, it means a lot.
Im guilty of the same thing btw, polarizing situations and all that. The middle ground, where you tell me to fuck off and youre trying to do something essentially positive, that would have been a really suitable response. Because then its like, 'well, ok tine, you can keep being a cunt and remove all doubt as to your quality as a person, or you can respect that this is someone trying to be real and simmer down'. Damn....and there is the door I should have walked through, I never even considered being level headed (God forbid!). Point well taken.
So by communicating your issues, if only once, before slamming the gauntlet down, you would have put the onus of responsibility on me to not be a horrible asshole. It would have been the right thing to say, I definitely earned the short bus for a reason...
And in all seriousness, if you want to move this entire convo to a new social group, or just start a new one and wipe the slate clean, Id be perfectly happy to respect those boundaries now that Im fully aware of them." I appreciate the kind words, and fwiw the boundaries I had wanted were stupid and unrealisitic. I've done some insane things in my life (shocking I know) and I think my blog/diary thing was shaping up to be something I may well have regretted. My misgivings about you having access had to do with my overall sense of fear and paranoia, and a bit of frustration (ok a lot) that you had been such a dick. I didn't see how you could be justiifed, though thankfully it all makes sense now. Strange I acted out really, from the getgo my logical side told me there was noooo chance anything I said in there wouldn't make it's way to you regardless if you had access or not, but I still chose insanity, and demanded- well whatever I demanded, I don't even know right now. Nothing probably would have made me happy. I'll take ti whole thing as an embarassing but valuable life/social lesson. Moving the convo to a new social group, that has merit, I'll take your advice and run with the idea.
I intend on staying but only if I am less terrible. It cut rather deep when you said I needed to provide real content and less attention whoring, as I hadnt ever bothered to take the time and see the difference. In fact, I had to re-read a lot of what I had written and then it became more clear- I am a fucking whore for attention like no other. At least I could whore in such a way that's funny and interesting as opposed to what I had been (my claims to having a robotic photographic memory or Jesus like humility for example.) It sucks being horrible, but even worse is feeling like you must be and wondering why, if it's true, no one fucking tells you...
Scuter I wanted to apologize for my insanity regarding the religious debates, I was out of line in the first place sparking them up unprovoked, on your site, and it was fun but not sure it didn't rub you the wrong way. I think it did unfortunately and I realize how odd and out of line that was for me to do.
Tine sorry for being such a jerk and for what it's worth (as you don't really need vindication from me) you were entirely justified in loathing my coming here. This is hallowed ground in many ways, more importantly it is YOUR hallowed ground, and if not for you and people like you to stand for what you believe in, next thing you know Skatz has degraded into nothing more than a dozen 408mikes running rampant trashing soccer in soccer threads and doing just about anything to get attention.
Cup if you think I take the internet too serious you would have been in tears at how serious I REALLY took it in 2007-2008. There were nights and days I couldn't function becasuse felon trolled me in every post, every thread, night and day, for so long that at times I was in tears. I wrecked at least 3 keyboards I can remember and bought a mantis shrimp (the most aggressive i could find) just to watch the thing crush hapless snails into bits and devour them, it seemed to bring down my stress. That sounds odd, but see then the mantis scurries back into his little shelter he made to eat them, and it's like having a small salt water buddy. He's like "hey man, you had a rough day I can tell, why don't you throw some dinner my way and enjoy the show, take the load of your back you know? I promise I will never let you down!" Shit I miss my mantis now that I think about it...mind wandering here....
Propheticaly enough, here is lewfather replying to me after making my first post on nwp 622 pages worth of posts ago.
"lewfather wrote:
Wow.. Who goes to a forum and as their first post it's the life story?" HOF
In fact, I was taking a trip down memory lane for you just now, so I could dig up the very first time I remember getting heated at a troll. So much HOF back in the day, it's like all the great personalities have either come here, gone to boris or just forgot how to be interesting.
I'm going to redo the social group with some interesting twists. It's going to be unique though, and whatever happens in the future, I will always keep Skatz close to heart. I'll keep making this place intersting as long as you keep me sane enough to be interesting and from there the sky's the limit.
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