It is true, Scuter has done an impossibly good job helping me. I want to acknowledge the following, all of which I am grateful for (my grammar is going to suck as I have mild heat stroke, such is life when you're bald and forgot why a hat matters)
Solved my religious crutch
Solved my need for pain relief (I have $400 on me and probably $550 by Monday and not the slightest desire for old habits- I would say 30% of my success on that front is my own willpower and 70% of it is the end result of a LOT of ingenious work on Scuter's end)
Solved my self hatred as a result of childhood sexual abuse i could not confront
Solved much of my paranoia (publicizing our PM's was genius)
Solved my inability to confront my failures in life as being a result of poor decision making mostly because my sick mother engineered me that way
Restored my sense of Self
Helped me understand my positives and negatives, knowing my place in the world and what my true talents are
My only conditions for return- all negativity towards Dan Druff ends, immediately (and this means in IST as well) also beenstaring teamrazor and mwh need to be permanently banned from Skatz and I mean forever. If I am missing any other "Druff Trolls" I may add to the list, but I am 99% confident I have isolated the real shitheads here.
I refuse to be a part of negativity as my life has no room for it any longer. This means any kind of negativity directed toward myself or anyone I consider a friend either public or in private has to go.
If it were any of you I would have your backs as well. Druff does not deserve the bullshit he gets all the time, all the autistic jokes and what not have worn thin on me. I hate that shit, I have been very up front regarding the abuse I received from bully's growing up. I hid in bushes skipping class to hide from my tormentors, so expecting my silence while you berate the man from the shadows is pretty unreal. I want nothing to do with anyone who perpetuates such childish and demeaning behavior.
I do not wish to cease interacting with a large number of you but there are a small small group of you poisoning the rest of the forum. It is infectious and I will have no part of it.
My terms are not open to negotiation.
Dave I am not mad at you, Scuter I thank you (I owe you my life), Gary and Pinski I miss both of you and yes I miss this forum but I will not be silent any more. I consider Druff a friend, not a close one but someone I trust and have tremendous respect for. Nothing I have done and nothing I have said (NOT A WORD) came from him. In fact, he told me PFA and skatz are not in competition and he really has nothing bad to say about Skatz at all, he has never asked me to spy and has never had a bad thing at ALL to say, he just wants to be respected and live his life.
I believe he is entitled to that.
I will respect whatever decision you collectively make.
Here's one problem with your demands, Ape. You call for the banning of MWH, Been and Team Razor, because they are "druff trolls". But Tapper is just as big of a druff troll as any of the other three. Perhaps more, he HATES druff. And yet, you love tapper. I think you're calling for MWH, Been and Razor has little to do with druff, and you're using that as an excuse. I think it's just your own personal feelings of dislike of those three.
Also, I can't imagine how you or anyone else can dictate content of IST. IT's not for public consumption, so how would or anyone know or care what we say in there, about any topic. It's an unreasonable demand.
It is a bit harsh some of the autism stuff, but .. Whats with 408.. You can tell he has daddy issues. He's like Druff's son. Michael Benjamin Jason XXI and thats for all his different job aspirations. I mean, hes latched onto Druff. Druff is a weird one, I can't really feel sorry for him but I don't wish him any harm... but really the guy can take care of himself. Just fucking bizarre.
in other news my house is a fucking tragedy. i really hope it gets its shit together because if it thinks im going to find time to clean up this mess before i head back to the catskills, its in for a broken heart and a soaked pillow.
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