Jesus Mary mother of Joseph you are one delusional and disturbed roided out mess
I decided to read your post and wow just wow
what the fuck is wrong with you ?
Thanks for making me realize I am quite sane compared to you
Oh just curious, why did your mom call the cops on you last night ?
oh and lol @ me buying a Glock . wtf
where do you get this shit ?
I feel so much better about myself after reading this vomit
lock yourself up in an asylum immediately jesus fucking christ
rofl oh please marty, I beg you, do not air my dirty laundry on the forums. if you tell people about my mom calling the cops, I don't know how I will survive. please man please, at least stop there. I know you know my middle name and some stuff like that, and it's just not cool man.
every time this goon posts he lights me up out of the blue. I have nothing to say about Mike anymore. this is getting embarrassing
he has proven over and over and over that he is unstable and has violent mood swings...not to mention being a huge flake. I laid out the red carpet for Mike many times, and he still lashes out with this nonsense.
never even met this clown, he has no business chiming in about me as often as he does when I have less than zero contact with him whatsoever
in other words...get out of my face Jason aka 40Ape. We have nothing to talk about.
someone just appealed to me to be nice to you and 'understand' and take pity on you or offer life advice
why even bother when you insist on these giant clusterfuck posts where you just pour out every detail and problem in your life and then suddenly launch into a tirade about me.
fucking imbecile
rofl you simmered for two solid hours before finally getting annoyed with yourself enough to start the petty nonsense.
am I supposed to be ashamed of my middle name?
I am in your face? no living human is in your face, because you are hiding (as you have been for years)
we have nothing to talk about? I disagree. You should hang around more and post. The reasons are straight forward- you enjoy doing it, people enjoy reading/watching what unfolds. win/win
pull up a chair, rant about something.
by the way, how many tilty posts did my comment generate 5 or so? yeah, I am just lying my ass off aren't I.
I am a supporter of most things Hoser *EXCEPT*---the fucking name nextlevelshit with a fishman avatar
ffs man, you have actually managed to create the WOAT username/avatar all in one swoop. words do not convey what I feel when I see that horrible avatar...please correct these horrible malfunctions, and keep being you in literally every other aspect of your existence.
Ok...I'm a bit behind the times on the new hep stuff you crazy kids are tripping way out to these days, but what could you be expecting to get that bath salts look like? Meth? Crack? Coke? I have no idea what bath salts even look like but I'm assuming the are in crystal form like salt. Also, assuming you did get ripped off at what point do you stop realizing you aren't full of energy and good cheer and instead want to eat someone's face? And assuming you have come to that realization, how many more tries do you give the product before completely resigning yourself to the fact that you have indeed to been ass rape by the dealer?
The face eating bit in florida, I don't know what the heck happened there. I do not nor would I ever voluntarily consume (in any fashion) bath salts and I am not 100% that's what I was given...You do not strike me as an addict or a person who's got any experience, so let me try to put this in words you will understand....
Relapsing happens, it's never excusable but in reality most addicts dabble when they can get away with it, for life. I had my hands on some money and picked up a remarkable connect (I had actually been hunting around for desoxyn and put some calls in to a few people connected....down south...of the border) and wouldn't you know it, a guy very well connected has recently been trying to put his life back together after a string of dui's. he wanted money very badly, it's a win/win USUALLY.
Unfortunately this particular product has a stigma attached to it and NO ONE wants to be near it. No dealer sells it for long and they treat customers LIKE COMPLETE SHIT. This guy for example forced me to either come between 6-10am or between 6-8 pm PERIOD. If I called any other time he threatened me and literally looked like he wanted to spit on me from the get go.
However, mexican maffia being who and what they are...he had some magic....but sadly also a lot of greed. It was very obvious he wanted some quick cash and I had a hunch he would burn me...and he did. And no, i can not retaliate.
The consuming bath salts thing...you do not fully understand your brain and limbic system I am guessing. Your reward complex hinges on a chemical called dopamine. Dopamine feels awesome and naturally you are hard wired to get some nice small amounts as a reward for sex, eating, hugging family and some other things.
Dopamine is tricky though, because it's part of the "old brain" meaning anything that triggers dopamine release you are hard wired to seek out as VITAL FOR SURVIVAL.
And this is what kills addicts. Many times I do not ever make a concious decision to get high, it just happens, like going to get food or something. An addict has had his or her brain chemistry altered such that their brain accepts the drug as VITAL FOR LIFE.
Now the salts thing...Imagine you are STARVING and you know the feeling right? multiply it so many times you could vomit, that about sums up cravings.
Now imagine you go to buy food, and are given a burger and fries that looks real but doesn't taste like anything, and the craving gets worse as you eat more of this fake food. You keep eating it trying to slience this hunger, and nothing happens, you just keep getting worse and more sick.
Funny how google did not return the same result as ape's post...btw thanks for the reply. Enjoyed the read and the insights greatly. And stay away from dem salts. Reward doesnt justify the damage from those nasty things. Also keep on fighting the good fight, you're gonna win soon enough.
Funny how google did not return the same result as ape's post...btw thanks for the reply. Enjoyed the read and the insights greatly. And stay away from dem salts. Reward doesnt justify the damage from those nasty things. Also keep on fighting the good fight, you're gonna win soon enough.
Did you read his post ? He doesn't even talk about what bath salts are. He bought some sketchy meth, wigged out, blamed it on "bath salts" because his meth looked weird. They really aren't "bath salts" but it has to be sold as SOMETHING if it is legal. So really, he didn't answer a damn thing about "bath salts" or what "kids are into these days". He said there was something in his meth, so he blamed bath salts. If you want to know what the fuck "bath salts" really are, then you go to google. You are as clueless now as you were when you asked, but oh yea showed me.
408, have you actually ever done "bath salts" ? THe crap you supposedly can buy that is marketed as bath salts ?
If "bath salts" were as addictive as 408 claims, then trust me.... it is almost near 100% they would not be legal in any reasonable capacity. They're not illegal because its nasty shit.
Now meth.. I hear people love that. You want to see what meth does ? LOL. Wake up.
edit - oh he says he's never done "bath salts" so he's just guessing he was given "bath salts". duh.
You do not strike me as an addict or a person who's got any experience, so let me try to put this in words you will understand....
Relapsing happens, it's never excusable but in reality most addicts dabble when they can get away with it, for life.
However, mexican maffia being who and what they are...he had some magic....but sadly also a lot of greed. It was very obvious he wanted some quick cash and I had a hunch he would burn me...and he did. And no, i can not retaliate.
The consuming bath salts thing...you do not fully understand your brain and limbic system I am guessing. Your reward complex hinges on a chemical called dopamine. Dopamine feels awesome and naturally you are hard wired to get some nice small amounts as a reward for sex, eating, hugging family and some other things.
Dopamine is tricky though, because it's part of the "old brain" meaning anything that triggers dopamine release you are hard wired to seek out as VITAL FOR SURVIVAL.
And this is what kills addicts. Many times I do not ever make a concious decision to get high, it just happens, like going to get food or something. An addict has had his or her brain chemistry altered such that their brain accepts the drug as VITAL FOR LIFE.
Now the salts thing...Imagine you are STARVING and you know the feeling right? multiply it so many times you could vomit, that about sums up cravings.
Now imagine you go to buy food, and are given a burger and fries that looks real but doesn't taste like anything, and the craving gets worse as you eat more of this fake food. You keep eating it trying to slience this hunger, and nothing happens, you just keep getting worse and more sick.
that about sums up what happened, in a nutshell.
I've never heard anything so ridiculous in my entire life. I have to run to meet someone but what a ridiculous failure to understand anything about your addiction.
Here's your clue. It involves "neutral". Pain. Relief. The body's fight to be free from pain.
Sorry to interrupt, do I put my dick in neutral or happiness? Happiness just seems like a trap to me. Angst sounds good. Never done angst before. Ok, carry on.
Sorry to interrupt, do I put my dick in neutral or happiness? Happiness just seems like a trap to me. Angst sounds good. Never done angst before. Ok, carry on.
rofl look I'm not the world's BEST artiste. Omg that reminds me I have to tell the story of MJ & "The Manila Artists", it's hof.
But I am not THE BEST artist in the world. No no no, I'm not fishing for compliments. This is not false modesty. I know my limitations and there are no doubt better artists in the world, than I am capable of being. I can accept that.
But the "Happiness" is supposed to be 'Happiness'. It's an issue of excessive parentheses and my unwillingness to draw the diagram again. It took me 20 seconds the first time. And time, after all, is MONEY. I'm reminded of this whenever I write brilliance without having the capacity to write brilliantly; and I have very little motive to acquire that capacity. John le Carre has it, and I have to self-censor on the fan pages of the internet because people think le Carre writes fiction and they get offended by people who believe David Cornwell is a great deal more than the propaganda he writes for the benefit of vassals.
_____
Our junkie friend here believes he is a "Bad" monkey addicted to dopamine release. The good news for him is that he would only be a bad monkey, if he keeps on believing the lies the zoo-keepers have been feeding to every animal in the zoo capable of feeling shame. The bad news for the stupid ape is that the zoo-keepers have left him in a precariously embarrassing state, which has resulted in his determined desire to hang onto the straw they throw to drowning monkeys forced to walk the plank when they were children; who grow up SOFT-wired to believe Self-defeating delusions of fatalism.
The irony is that when you have been led to believe you are "in the hands of a higher power" (AA is one of the most horrifying religious organisations in the world), you are effectively signing away whatever remaining Self you possess. There is no higher power. You control yourSelf. Junkies don't like to hear this because they don't LIKE themSelves. The reason a junkie doesn't like his or her Self is because they don't understand squat. They will never like themSelves again unless they understand squat.
It's a question of motive. Everything is a question of motive. I vaguely remember I was half-way through a post on motive but I have very little motive to give monkeys what they don't want to read.
The key to getting your Self back, and retaking control of your life, can only be achieved when you understand why you do the things you do. And you will never be able to understand your motive until you understand the motive of those who make everyone stupid in order to make them suffer. The diagram I scribbled with excessive parentheses will help you understand the Insanity of their motive.
Toddlers don't like that diagram because it's confronting. I love confrontation because I'm sane. Because I'm sane, I do not avoid confrontation which means I'm never rude (but the rudest Toddlers in the world will imagine Sanity could be rude, and I will miss teaching Filipinos about disparities of Religion and why they are not in a position to lecture the Sane - I made those filthy Toddlers scream in pain with my Power, when they refused to respond to logical arguments for why they MUST act in their own interests when they interact with me). Of course I never touched them. I just made them suffer.
It was all in their imaginations. What you can imagine, I can imagine better. And whatever you can FEEL, I can make you FEEL. You don't want to fuck with me if you're an emotionally manipulative shrewd creep. You will scream in pain.
Toddlers do not like what confronts them because they do not realise they want to take responsibility for the consequences of their actions. Imbeciles who have been made to be imbeciles like the idea of "surrendering to a higher power". If they weren't imbecilic, they would be horrified at themSelves. Unless you are insane, you want liability. It's in your best interests. You don't want your Self to be incorporated. You don't want "limited liability". Get your liability back and you will get your Self back. Until then, you will suffer and you will make others suffer by your incapacity to live in pain without spraying your Golden Urine onto everyone and everything.
Sharing insanity is not caring. The Compassion of Christians needs to be placed under the ground, with their bodies; or the world will rest in peace.
The monkey in question thinks he's addicted to dopamine release, which is fucking ridiculous no matter which way you look at it. There's a pretty good chance he's already released the vast majority of his dopamine reservoirs, which (at least when I stopped reading the imbecilic arguments of the scientifically-clueless - I think you call them "psychiatrists") were widely believed to be non-replenishable (who knows with those imbecilic hacks; but the consensus [which coincided with the more convincing of the inherently unconvincing arguments made by proponents of both] on dopamine believes that once that shit be gone, it's gone - bananas and HTC-5 aren't going to refill the dam). It's all a distraction of course, but I'm yet to hear an intelligent or sensible argument for why dopamine "flash flooding" is even necessary (there's a pretty good chance the natural flooding of dopamine has been corrupted via imagined stimuli which are invariably illogical and the resulting product of a criminally-insane mind; I'm talking about criminal emotions [as in, if you FEEL them, you WILL commit crimes of passion; and the key to crime prevention is arresting passion]).
Probably the most criminal of all crimes against humanity is committed by the passionate leeches who suck the life out of human beings with their "Love". The genocide of humanity was completed thousands of years ago. Humans were exterminated. It's horrifying that the will to live keeps the dead alive. They invariably breed human children as a result.
Humanity is bred for the dead to feed upon. Children are bred literally to suck the life out of them. Billions of screaming NEEDY carcasses litter the globe; too stupid to live, too vile to die. Children are The Answer for those who will never give you an answer for WHY they are breeding children but if there are more optimal ways to lose friends you don't want (unless you're a creep who befriends victims to victimise), I'm unaware of them.*
* excerpt taken from my non-existent book "How to Lose Leeches and Manipulate No One", not available in good bookstores near you because there aren't any of those bookstores - leeches have been intercepting those books for a very long time now). 8 billion copies of the Bible have been printed, instead. If it were the only book in existence, it still wouldn't be worth reading. I learned that the very hard way. Curiosity doesn't kill cats so much as corrupt cats with the passion that results in the never ending genocide of kittens.
I know for a fact that the 'experts' haven't a fucking clue about brain chemistry and dopamine, in particular. I know for a fact that this shame-filled monkey isn't addicted to anything of the sort. He's addicted to what seven billion human monkeys are addicted to. It's not remotely shameful because "Shame" is a figment of an emotionally-disturbed mind. They disturb the minds of children this way, to trick them into 'living' disturbed lives. There is a religion you may or may not have heard of called "Christianity". It's not a very "Good" religion because there is no such thing as "Good". But it's not a 'good' religion because it's fucking batshit Insane.
The core tenet of Christianity is that being human is "Shameful".
You would be criminally-stupid if you believed your DNA was predisposed to criminal behaviour. To allow that kind of Insane ignorance to replace your Self is a criminal act, from the moment you have been informed of the Truth no Toddler wants to FEEL. But what Toddlers fucking want, without being bright enough to realise it, is a life of FEELING pain. What Toddlers need is a fucking slap across their filthy existential faces because there is nothing more malicious than wanting to be Insane and wanting to 'live' in Pain.
This criminal monkey needs to slap his fatalistic face as hard as he can, as often as he can, until he accepts that only he will ever be able to take retake control of his Self from those who would have him FEEL his actions are preordained. The only way he's going to be able to do this is by understanding why he does the things he does and why he feels the things he feels. He will be a criminal for as long as he is willing to accept that his actions are out of his control.
This is a malicious lie told to him by beasts who need to be placed into peace, permanently. It's a malicious lie he continues to hold in his denial, which is what those who have no faith in themSelves hold onto.
This criminal monkey is not addicted to dopamine release but then I have told him that via PM already. It's one of the reasons I don't write PRIVATELY anymore. And the things I write are the Reason for the invention of the illusion of "Privacy". I destroy "Shame" but only for those who no longer wish to wallow in such filthy fatalism.
This criminal monkey is addicted to something as vital to living as oxygen. Addiction is never the problem. An addict is never 'healed' because a 7 billion monkey humans are all addicted to staying alive. A junkie is addicted to staying alive. They're not very bright, which is why they die before their time. Of course, their suffering is very lucrative for the State and for Religion, in the meantime. It's not profitable, of course. The State and Religion are also Toddlers, of course.
This criminal monkey no longer has 'excuses', because this has all been explained to him. I'm not saying it's an easy process, but then I have no tolerance for anyone who FEELS they would prefer to 'live' a life of suffering rather than retake control of their Self.
Mike problem is not addiction. His problem is more fundamentally idiotic, than the addiction of human DNA to staying alive. Mike's problem is that he's a junkie because he believes his DNA is coded unintelligently. This is bullshit. He's the product of millions of years of natural selection, gone horribly awry only (relatively) recently. Junkies will do inherently shameful things for as long as they believe there is shame in being addicted to the instinctual fundamental necessity that is supposed to drive humanity forward but - of course - when it corrupted, we all get driven back into horror and misery; with the imbecilic dragging those who want to be happy and those who want to have fun without hurting anybody, back with with them into the Dark Ages of Religion's exploitation of everybody.
Mike isn't addicted to dopamine release. He craves without having the wherewithal to have a clue about what he's craving. Mike's addicted to what you are addicted to.
Mike is ADDICTED to the relief of pain.
It will only ever be as 'Shameful' as he wants it to be in his perfectly understandable (but not remotely justifiable) FELT determination to Inshallah his life away.
Scuter I gave you several hours to fix this mess of a...I don't know what you are doing, trolling is my #1 suspect. It can't be stupidity, though evidence strongly points to the contrary....FROM THE TOP
Quote:
I've never heard anything so ridiculous in my entire life. I have to run to meet someone but what a ridiculous failure to understand anything about your addiction.
You had to meet whom exactly? This sounds fishy to me, well not you meeting anyone, but making a point of saying as such...has a tinge of faggot to it, sort of like "hey that long post, yeah man, I just wanted to say I have noooooo intention of reading it. not a damned word. kthanx bai."
trolling radar up [x]
Quote:
But I am not THE BEST artist in the world. No no no, I'm not fishing for compliments. This is not false modesty. I know my limitations and there are no doubt better artists in the world, than I am capable of being. I can accept that.
............beep...............beep..............
Quote:
Our junkie friend here believes he is a "Bad" monkey addicted to dopamine release.
The irony is that when you have been led to believe you are "in the hands of a higher power" (AA is one of the most horrifying religious organisations in the world), you are effectively signing away whatever remaining Self you possess. There is no higher power. You control yourSelf. Junkies don't like to hear this because they don't LIKE themSelves. The reason a junkie doesn't like his or her Self is because they don't understand squat. They will never like themSelves again unless they understand squat.
The monkey in question thinks he's addicted to dopamine release, which is fucking ridiculous no matter which way you look at it.
Quote:
There's a pretty good chance he's already released the vast majority of his dopamine reservoirs, which (at least when I stopped reading the imbecilic arguments of the scientifically-clueless - I think you call them "psychiatrists") were widely believed to be non-replenishable (who knows with those imbecilic hacks; but the consensus [which coincided with the more convincing of the inherently unconvincing arguments made by proponents of both] on dopamine believes that once that shit be gone, it's gone - bananas and HTC-5 aren't going to refill the dam).
I know for a fact that the 'experts' haven't a fucking clue about brain chemistry and dopamine, in particular. I know for a fact that this shame-filled monkey isn't addicted to anything of the sort
You are either trying reeeeeally hard to get me to bite on the vast innacuracies in the odd, demeaning, somewhat hostile post above (who the hell do you presume you are talking to if not to me? Or is it normal for you to refer to someone in the third person like that?)
I presume you know how to spell 5-HTP....?
Quote:
bananas and HTC-5 aren't going to refill the dam
???????
And the entire medical community, like globally, begs to differ on some of your theories. Here start reading [ http://wings.buffalo.edu/aru/COCAINE.html ] and do some research, the human body is my playground, the mind is yours. Stick with what you know and it ain't bio-chemistry.
Linear Mode
